Story Three
Oh I get it now!
I came out of the hallucination and was awakened by a song that I didn’t recognize and yet it sounded so much like a Beatles song. Of course the announcer was that same guy which means I may have still been in Select Dialysis. They watched that damnable show every day. I can’t stand the Maury Povich Show. That man is just annoying beyond words and there he was the announcer for my hallucination.
Somewhere in the outer layers of this hallucination Maury began giving the background to this song that was in my head as the entire album Magical Mystery Tour that was song in Japanese by the fab four, which meant they were all still alive, and then recorded then album backwards. I remember when I was coming out of all of this I kept telling this red headed nurse that I couldn’t wait to get the new Beatles that was untitled. Maury from the Maury Povich Show just told the world or at least told part of the remaining universe that the Beatles sang and performed the entire album in Japanese and George Martin recorded it backwards and added his touch to it.
The red headed nurse just looked at me and finally walked off and I drifted back to my hallucination. She was the same redhead with those white caps on her teeth that was shining the first night I was here and I thought they were crystal rays of light that had something to do with Star Wars.
There have been more laws passed over the last three years over Roe than had been brought up to vote on in a decade before.
I would strongly suggest that the republicans, tea party wing nuts and most of all you pasty white democrats, banks, bankers, corporations, CEO’s, billionaires, millionaires, presidents both alive and dead and any of you weasels I have forgotten who won’t vote on anything until they have been stroked a little by the right wing and their constituents.
Ok not a little. They want stroked long and hard and it’s not the right its corporations, lobbyists and special interest groups like the gun nuts and the religious hypocrites. I would strongly suggest that all of those cretins who put harm, damage and death on humans for the sole purpose of getting richer and more powerful. I would suggest you cover yourself with all of that money and the gold and silver and the bones of those who died at your hands and prepare yourself for what is coming next. For the rest of us just make sure you have a towel with you at all times.
Listening to Chicago V. Man Terry Kath was a radical and you felt it in the lyrics in the songs and his guitar playing. CTA’S first four albums and were drenched with the influence of Kath and eve Chicago V you could hear Kath throughout the work and then he was playing Russian oops and Chicago changed forever. Funny how that works isn’t it.
It’s Sunday and we are in the beginning stages of what everybody keeps calling a blizzard. Lima has already started. My windows in the room let me see the sky and nothing else other than an occasional plane and a lot of choppers which are landing on the roof of the hospital.
It’s been one of those days where the place is understaffed and they are busy so getting a nurse or PSA can take forever. The last place called their PSA’s techs. I should have known that Select was a very strange job to have and if they were using titles like tech there was something very wrong, oh Wait, I’m thinking of another company that is between Delaware and Plain City. It was called Select Sires which was a company where employees would wear plastic gloves with a plastic robe and they had a machine that would masturbate the bull until, well you know the rest.
I am remembering everything so vividly right now as if I have been in a walking moving and thinking coma. The curtains have been raised and unfortunately for the time being all I can see is the, yep we’re back to this again.
I take more drugs now than I have ever taken in my life. The variety is unbelievable. Happy pills and narcotics and muscle relaxers and many more. They used to call me a garbage head because I would take whatever was given to me and this is true. I found out what chocolate masculine was by doing this little trick and I was introduced to microdots the same way.
Most of my trips were good trips. The times when I would go through hell were on the various combinations of speed I would ingest.
I loved speed all the way from white crosses to snorting meth and everything in-between. Yea back in the day we didn’t smoke meth, we snorted it like coke and it was a better speed buzz than cocaine. It hit you quick and the buzz was a powerful motivation. I also found out early that the coming down was hell so I just timed it to always be ready with another dime when the first dime was wearing down. By doing this I pretty much was able to stay speeding my balls off for six yep six years. What also continued was the taking of other drugs and drinking.
What finally made me quit was being arrested for tackling two Colunbus police officers into a ditch of water. I ended up spending 30 days in jail in franklin county and sixty days in Madison county and then went to a treatment facility called Maryhaven in Columbus.
I didn’t quit because I had hit bottom, Na that would come much later. I was on probation for three years and Narcotics Anonymous seemed he best place to hang out till I was off probation and in all honesty I hun around for five.
Good old NA. The twelve, no thirteen step program where old winos, junkies and freaks could hook up with young legal age girls for some intense sex and profound relapses. See the thirteenth step was to get into a relationship with someone who had less than a year clean. The idea was that a person hadn’t been clean long enough to gain enough of themselves to be ready for a relationship. I say bullshit. Nothing helps you get to your bottom quicker than a drunken, drugged fueled binge relationship. If this doesn’t kill you being clean looks like the best ticket around and you would think that would be the case. You are absolutely sure that this new person who you are sleeping with and you are assuming you are falling in love with will be the perfect relationship an when this breakup happens it makes the previous one look like the perfect one that got away.
Twelve step programs are bullshit. AA are rooms full of arrogant assholes. NA is full of self-centered fuckwits that only want a good time and a lot of sex.
There is absolutely only one way to quit and that is to lose everything and when you think there is nothing left to lose you will find out that there are more things to lose.
I have been free of narcotics, barbiturates, trip amphetamines and alcohol for a long time, well up to the point that I got sick and the medical industry started feeding me some of all of the above except for alohol. There was a difference though. I didn’t get high until in two different facilities due to a complete breakdown of the system and administering drug combinations and losing some meds for a week at a time I my fellow travelers went bat shit tripping my balls off.
After all the debacle and incompetence from those two facilities I would always end back up here at good old Ohio State University Wexner Medical Center.
Now to the drug that really isn’t a drug. Nope it’s a weed growing out of the earth and it will feed you, clothe you, protect you and make you enlightened high and it’s illegal. As you all know I’m talking about marijuana. Ah yes, pot, weed, smoke and boo to name a few. The only drug I ever used that didn’t make me sick or crazy or tackling police. Nope good old weed just made me happy and high and I can’t wait to get back to smoking it.
I quit smoking pot about six years ago because I was going to be around my dear brother and his family and my daughter was at that time fed up with my behavior and thought it might be the pot and they put me on some ridiculous drug for bi-polar disorder and I just sort of forgot about smoking pot.
Well my brother’s kids are older now and my daughter is realizing that mental health was the real problem with me and frankly when I get out this hospital I am either going to walk or wheel myself up to either a legal source or illegal person and buy me some weed and get high.
That’s right I get it now!
cool peace
hippy mike
love
spirit
everything is groovy.
I would not feel alone
Everybody must get stoned, alright.