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This is the house of schizophrenia where nothing is ever the same for any period of time, well except the food. The food always sucks.
It started last night with a couple across the hall getting into a fight. Uncle Albert was of course involved but nothing really happened. Oh Chesterfield was all over it. You know because he thinks he is the great and powerful protector of us all. He is the law and enforcement here. No, he's a patient just like me. He has a nephew who is a cop who when Chesterfield calls has to show up and go, “Listen Chet you are ok. Everything is ok.”
The next evening it got worse. The town drunk, which in this town is one of many, decided his roommate was stealing his liquorice and took a swing at him. Well Mat is not a man to swing at. Mat is a gentle quiet goofy kind of guy until pushed and then he ends up doing three years for manslaughter. At least that is what he said in the hallway today.
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Uncle Albert who is known for instigating these little crisis situations this tie is trying to get Mat to settle down.
They finally called the administrator who brilliantly said, “Make them all stay in their rooms and put Mat in a different room for tonight.”
She's really a sweet woman and it's sad that she and all of these people just don't know how to handle this many crazies. Especially when it's a fucking nursing home and not a mental institutin.
Oh I remember. The government cut all the funding to mental institutions so we had to find somewhere to put all the crazies. Let's put them with the old and crippled! Oh that's a good idea.
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Get this through your heads. No one is safe in these places after normal business hours.
It's insanity all around. Your loved ones do what they can and sometimes the best they can do is to find a facility to put you into. They see the brochures and meet the very adept representatives who have perfected bullshitting to a science. Once inside the walls however it is a completely different place.
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See the fog has to clear first and if you have rooms full of people still in the fog they are easy to take care of but when the fog clears for a lot of the patients then you have conflict happening everywhere.
Don't be fooled just because we are in wheelchairs or using walkers or electric cart this can still be a dangerous and volatile situation.
This brings ups another interesting little bit of information that leaked tonight. The place is full of ex-cons and some are known for being quite dangerous. What the fuck are they doing in a nursing home?
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This is the new war zone here in the states. Crazies, elderly and cripples all thrown together in a pot of insanity and no one knows what to do about it.
The one good thing I have found out is that I am crazy but I ain't no where near as ballistic as some of these fuckers are in here. There is a whole new batch of crazy here that I am just not comfortable with. It's dangerous.
I remember my brother telling me that at my peak of insanity and chemical destruction that people were afraid of me and I never understood it. Now I do.
Is this another karmic lesson or just the way it is in the big city.
Of course according to the news that is spilled onto the screens every day. This place is just a microcosm of the entire planet. People everywhere are just going bat shit crazy.
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Maybe it is the end. I have tendency to believe it is just the beginning.
It was a restless night and now there are thunderstorms which always make me filled even more with energy. I love thunderstorms. The bigger the better. I have a bizarre fascination with them, a kindred strength that comes to the surface when they are around. Weather is one of those things we have absolutely no control over. It's like the one thing that happens where if there was a god he or she would be showing us right now.
They do dumb things here during severe storms. They make us all stay in our rooms which I refuse to do. I want to be outside giving the storm the finger and hoping for good shot.
They handle fire drills just the same. The hallway doors automatically close and we are supposed to stay in our room which makes no sense. Be tapped in a small room during a fire? Once again I go out into the hallway.
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What a delicate and dangerous dance we play out here. I am of sound mind. I have the ability to pretty much take care of myself now. I have the right to say no to anything that goes on here even if it is not what is best for me. It cannot be any different. Even though I think they should have the right to tell us no liquor or alcohol on the premises. I wonder if I would feel differently about that if I was still drinking.
The truth of the matter is that I have a right to do whatever I choose to do until the government decides to take it away from me. I can then rebel against the government which usually ends up bad.
Yea we are losing a lot of our rights as “free” citizens in this expanse of land we call home. Many of the changes that are happening on Capital Hill show up in places like this where we are the stop place for all the facilities that were closed down by the government.
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What are ya gonna do. We just have to keep rebelling, protesting and even fighting back if necessary until the system falls and we can rebuild a new government that will be a little better than the last but that over time will still have problems.
See, rights aren't a governmental responsibility. Order is just some people thinking they need to be in charge and rules and laws are how they try to enforce this control and order.
The human being is not a creature that needs any of these things. We are just one small step above the rest but we still need to dictate our own lives and to find our own food and to pick our own mates and to find out own consciousness. Rules, laws and government only create decent. Until consciousness is within all of us this will continue to be the way things go because there will always be those who want that control. There will always be the who believe they are here to rule and then there are the rest of us. Spinning around in circles in the yard to get high.
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I think the greatest heartbreak is that there is no mystery left in this world. We have been awakened to all the dirty, ugly and terrible things that make up living on this planet. We are subjected to the cruelty and inhuman behavior that goes with being a human being.
You would think with this type of deluge of information that we would stand up and scream at the to of our lungs “NO MORE” but instead we are sedated and cannot respond effectively.
I think however the anger and frustration is building and we are getting closer to a all out “FUCK YOU” to the government and the terrible things that it has done to us. Yep I think we are close and I think I just might see it. Of course the only thing that might stop it is legalizing marijuana. Wait, oh damn you Uncle Sam!
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