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t's been a busy day with the angels. They have all been working overtime to keep an eye on me, to keep me safe. Its a full time job.
The biggest part of the job is keeping me positive and happy and keeping me from being depressed.
Sound like a pathetic fucking loser here.
It's hard to believe that I used to be a balls to the wall kind of guy who didn't let anything get in his way and now I spend most of my time being a neurotic goof ball filled with anxiety medicine and still experiencing anxiety.
I am depressed. Damn depressed. That kind of sadness that grips you by the throat and won't let go. It's a stranglehold taking my breath away.
Been a while since the few paragraphs were written above this. I am again home and doing my best to stay safe and not break any more bones.
It is a truly magnificent dream to be home. The quiet and solitude. The ease that I can do whatever I want when I want and and I not dictated by angry frustrated nurses and aids who hate their jobs and hate the patients worse.
I texted my brother the other day and said, “It's time to start living again.”
The statement is powerful and profound for me. I haven't really lived for a long time time. I have been putting one foot in front of the other and not really paying attention to what was happening around me. Even those moments of what appeared to be movements toward some fulfillment I was simply going through the motions. Its time to really start living.
My life has been redefined because of this chair and a number of other things and it's important for me to stay positive about all of it. Everything is a process of learning and meditation.
The time has come to take all of those affirmations that the social networking sites have pasted everywhere and start to believe them on a daily basis. It's time to get back to believing that I am a fucking miracle and that these angels are watching over me.
What a trip man.
Yep it's been quite ride. Filled with tremendous ups and devastating downs and here I am still kicking and dropping everything. How did I get by without the grabber?
I believe that the positive thouht process is what gives us all a life, a real life and a pressene of life that is not accomplished anywhere else.
I have lived in negativity and it's not a pretty place to be. Dark corners are just that. Dark shadows of what life could have been, might have been if only...
Here I am crippled up in a wheelchair with a number of other things going on and I am living a more positve life than I ever have. When everything is taken away but the will, the sheer and beautiful evergy of self you will ether find self or you will finally be taken away from this plane of existence. Yes we do have choices.
My mind is filled with so many images and thoughts of the past and I find it excruciating at times to deal with. I have to consciously work at staying in this very beautiful now. To live my life here and now.
Here is the truth to it all. I will be ok is a statement but it's not the real message. I am ok is exactly where I m right now. I am ok. I survived and I grew from the entire experience. I have come closer to consciousness and I have become intimte with life here on this beautiful planet and beyond. I have jouried to different universes and I have learned to live in this beautiful world right here and right now.
I have learned the power and deception that the mind is capable of and I have found my spiit and travelled on it's wings to the greatest adventures of all time.
With everything that is going so terribly wrong with our world today it is no better time than now to grasp hold of the positive energies that surround us all and to embrace these new consciousnessness principles and live them to our fullest potential.
We have nothing else.
The negative spin has proven to be destrctive. The Fox news mentality has proven to be toxic poison that has rendered us all speechless. We are just beat to pieces with lies and distrotion and we sit in silence and confustion. Positive energy is our only choice here.
It's not always easy.
It can be virtually impossible to gather up the energy needed to feel, generate and send forth positive vibrations but I assure you that when it can be accomplished it is truly a beautiful gift from the Angels.
First step is to remove all forms of news reporting from you life for a week. Seven days without CNN or Huffington Post or MSNBC or Fox or any of the rest including local news for your area.
I guarentee you that in one week when you return to the news progams that the news won't have chaged but what has changed is your view of it all.
Spend that week reading positive articles on the expansion of the mind and energy. Go back and read the classics and watch old movies.
Spend more time painting, writing, singing, composing, planting and living a simple carefree life.
The path to consciousness is a strangely beautiful journey filled with many different emotions and lessons Enjoy the ride.
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